I have a confession to make.

I admit I wasn't happy for months and for almost a year.
It's so hard to pretend that everything was fine.
Yes I always pray but the feeling of emptiness was still in my heart.

I was having a hard time last night.
My love died.
My heart stopped.
My tears fell.

I thought life was unfair.
I thought love was painful
I thought everything was nothing
And I thought I was nothing.
Nothing.

I started this day with no love in my heart.
I never thought of love.
I erased happiness.
I hated love.

But in the late afternoon,
I listened to my playlist, hillsong was playing.
Then I think God.
He reminds me that he's always there.
Then I closed my eyes
I said to him that
I was sorry,
I was too weak to let go,
I was feeble to not live by faith
I was afraid to not to be loved by someone
I was sorry.

Then a smile in my face appeared.
I so love my God.
He is my great adviser.
He believes in me.
I so love my God ;)

I don't understand but I start to accept the consequences of this life.
Life is all about faith
It's the source of happiness.

If you learn to accept the pain and if you make a way to seek for the truth, then life would be easy.
Sometimes you will fall hard but most of the time there's a sweet fall.
Remember that God will never let you down, He is a good shepherd.

Now, my life is happy.
I learn to forgive.
I will continue to appreciate life.
I continue to love.
I live by faith.
I live with Him with this happy heart. =)

I won't worry my life away.